My Baby Boo...:((

yesterday....was a fine day for mi....n after werk i went to meet fatim @ jusco...im lucky cz a few minute i got there...i got a paking...yey....then i having fun wif fatim...chatting n laughing like we did owez....well...i luv her...at least she fulfills my boring life...well....we gosipping bout our life...till 10pm....

then i went back to my car happily...

then i reached home and watch 'awan dania'....

then when i was in the toilet...suddenly...mom called mi...screaming...

suddenly im thinking dat sumthin happen to my baby boo....im thinking of my baby boo got dented...

ok..now im worried...so i went out to c wut happen...

suddenly mymom said that my baby boo got scratched....im like....:O....:(..:((....
cz mom get angry wif mi n mek mi fil so terrible....im stress...
then....pity my baby boo...the scratch was so deep on the driver's door and front....
my head spinning n thinking 'keje sapela ni'....im like dunno wut to do cz it oready happen....

then i feel like wanna sleep early cz im so weak...
so i went to my bed...n hugs tedy....n crying like hell....
i feel so hurt...like wanna split 'the one'...
its juz bout only 7months i use baby boo n sum1 spoil it...
hmm...ive no mud...n mcm nk demam (eh tibe2 jadik melayu blk..:P)
hmm xpela....xto nk wat ape dh...redha je la...
smoge org yg buat tu dapat pembalasan satu hr nnt...

sob sob

Cinta Hati~~

Ya Allah, jika aku jatuh cinta,
cintakanlah aku pada seseorang yang melabuhkan cintanya padaMu,
agar bertambah kekuatanku untuk menyintaiMu.

Ya Muhaimin, jika aku jatuh cinta,
jagalah cintaku padanya agar tidak melebihi cintaku padaMu.
Ya Rabbana, jika aku jatuh hati,
jagalah hatiku padanya agar tidak berpaling daripadaMu.

Ya Rabbul Izzati, jika aku rindu,
rindukanlah aku pada seseorang yang merindui jihad dan syahid di jalanMu.
Ya Allah, jika aku rindu, jagalah rinduku padanya
agar tidak lalai aku merindui syurgaMu.

So...ingatla kwn2...cinta tu xbute..tp manusia yg bute menilai cinta...
cinta tu terlalu berharge utk dipermainkan...
jadik jgnla bg 100% utk cinta...
pecayela...
tuhan pasti tolong org yg baik...:)

My besday celeb!

Ni besday celebration saye...makan kt Bubbagump......sedap gile ok...pastu sy ngidam cheese (xto nape)...rase nk sgt mkn cheese pastu dapat,....nyum2...sedapnyer.....rase mcm heaven sgt...weee....thx kt famili sy.....muax!







ni gamba2 makanan lak...kalo tgk sure terliur....







p/s :...ekceli sy xto dh ape nk tulis sbb beberapa hr ni bz je...ni pun asik tertangguh je..hikhik...

Hepi Besday Sweetie Elia 24th~~

Tepat pukul 12 mlm.....ekceli xtepat lagik..awl 3minit...kekekek...bubu pun wish hepi besday!...siap nyanyi live wit adik badik....gedix2 gorgeous....so sweeetttt~~i luv them so much....rindu nk merongeng bersameee....pastu bertalu2 msg kt henfon saye...walhal mase tu sy dh nk tdo dh...isk2....fatim huney....irene syg...que syg....sume wish....tu pun dh wat sy cukup hepi...dgn org2 kesygan sy yg wish besday sy...dh cukup wat air mate sy bergenang kejap....hiiihih....sensitip noo...tp kalo drg2 ni xwish sy...sy mmg trase hati....hehe...

anyway...besday kalini as owez....sy agk sedeh + risau...seb bek tdo lena sbb sy pasang econ...sy xhrp ape2 utk besday kalini sbb sy tau every time besday sy...sy mesti akan sedeh....wajib!!...sy mls sgt nk bgn pg g opis sbb sy dh tau perkare sedeh bakal berlaku...tp sy gagahkan dri..bile sy nk mandi...sy terkejut bile npk ade kotak besa kt ats kusi sy....kotak tu ckp hepi besday elia....i tot my parents....wahh...pandai wat surprise ni...pastu sy pun bukak dgn ganasnyer...yela sbb nk cpt mandi...pastu sy tgk2...belek2....pastu ade note....okay~~~...dari note tu sy dh tau sape...sy agk je...tp bear dpn mate pun xcukup nk wat sy hepi memandangkan sy tau perkare sedeh akan berlaku..so sy xsehepi mane...

saye pegi ofis dgn lemah longlai....dtg cam bese...wat keje cam bese...seb bek bos xdtg lg....sy cek fb....hepi sbb ramai wish...ehhe...tp yg bes tu org xknl pun leh wish....lawakla bile pk...pastu sy dpt video besday from kaklong...irsyad naynyi....comelllll.....sy terharu....sy mmg ske kalo irsyad yg nyanyikan besday....weeee....mmg sepjg hr sy masamla....tp wish2 org buatkan sy tersenyum seketika....

bile bos dtg....sy dh tau bende yg menyedehkan akan berlaku...walaupun bos xmrh...juz ckpleklok....tp sy rase dri sy sgt hina dan xgune....lom cukup sethn keje pun...sy dh buat byk kesalahan besa.....sy malu...xto nk letak muke mane...mmg mase tu rase down sgt2...tp bende dh jadik..sy try xpk sgt...~~:(

kaklong cam bese...die lak over nk plan nk mkn ktne same2...aneh....mmg tu la kewajipan kami famili kalo besday sape2...kua mkn je la walaupun xde hadiah...tp dats the bes kannn...

pastu mlm tu dpt lg surprise....but in a scary wayy...no need to stori it...

p/s:...i luv bubu,fatim,irene,,que and all my angels so much...u ol r my soul...thx 4 besday wishes...muax...

p/s2:...thx 4 those suprises...i appreciate it...thx again

I wish~~

I wish....
some miracle happen to me....
so that i would live through happiness....

I wish....
i can turn back time...
so that i wouldn't hurt this much...

I wish...
there would be some surprises on my birthday...
but i don't like surprise...

I wish....
someone could accompany me whenever i feel down...
so that i can cry on their shoulder...

I wish...
i could be a problem solver....
so that everyone could be more happier....

I wish...
i can scream right now...
so that i can pull out my stress....

I wish...
i can shopping whenever i want....
because it make me so relieve.....

I wish...
i can cry right now...
coz i feel so lonely...

BUT...
i noe i'm a strong person...
although i'm always crying alone...
but that's how i'm showing what i've inside...
and only God knows why...

Tired Week~~!

omg...penatnyer this week....n...hr2 pun tdo lewat cz kne tunggu my parents balik...omg...mmg mate jadik cam panda....nnt kne set blk mase tdo...kalo x abis muke i...grrr...
mmg agk stress...di opis...dan di rumah...
di opis.....sy stress sbb kne wat due keje dlm satu mase...dan tambahan lak sy mmg agk clumsy orgnyer...so bkn sy xleh nk wat multitask tp mesti ade bende yg salah....dh jadik due keje..isk2...
pastu mcm nk mintak tlg org lain pun cam haihh..kesian plak..pastu mls nk dgr rintihan...pastu bile i merintih kene mrh plak...isk...
di rumah...sy stress sbb skang ni dh slalu srg2...parents sy slalu kt kedai...blk tgh mlm...so sy rs sgt sunyi...hmm tahla...sy xto nape skang ni sy rase mcm teringt sumthin...n sy xto nape bende tu dtg blk...frankly speaking....sy rase sgt terseksa...i dun wan anybody to noe....true...i need sum1 but i dun need sum1...rs nk shoulder sum1 n i want to cry...cry like a river...
i think i cant write anymore bout this,...it makes me cry...its really hard 4 me...i really hope 2 forget it...i want to hate sum1 but can i??i feel hurting...demit....

Sume bende nk wat tensen!!

hrni kan....tense sgtt....xto nape...ekceli pg2 xdela tense sgt pun...sume berjln seperti bese je...

pastu....start dari...

kes cheese :

dengan hati yg gumbira...pegi jln terkedek2 ke leisuremall dgn harapan membeli a&w...
pastu pegila beli bersama firhan...dekat a&w tu pegila pesan..
saye :"aaa...saye nak set double deluxe burger regular ye..bungkus,pastu sy nk tambah lagik satu french fries"
pelayan :.."ha?french fries?"(dgn muke taiknyer)
saye :.."yela...fries" (dlm hati:..mcmla ko taktau kan...dahla xnk senyum..buat muke taik plek.)

saye pun duduk tunggu die bungkus....

pelayan : (sambil menunjuk2 makanan dh sedia)
saye :..."maseh" (sambil cek,eh?bkn aku ade oder fries satu lg ke?sambil kembali dgn bengangnyer)
saye :.."eh bkn tadik saye ade oder lagi satu fries ke?" (nada dh lain)
pelayan :..."aaa...nk regular ke large?" (muke taik lagik..sori pun TAKKKKK!!)
saye :...dgn muke bengang amik je tanpa ckp maseh lagik...huh...

balik opis...pas solat sume....saye pun mulekan sesi makan saye...pastu sy tgk beger saye...
WUTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!
bukan beger ni ade cheese ke???apsal xdek niiiii????
dengan xsemena2 saye trus google no fon a&w leisuremall....
saye calll...

saye:..."helo...ni a&w leisuremall ke?? tadik saye ade beli set beger...beger ni ade cheese ke x ekceli??"
pelayan :..."ade"
saye :..."abis apsal saye xdpt?"
pelayan :"cik dah mkn ke?cik tinggal kt mane?"
saye :.."blom...blakang ni je cheras plaza"
pelayan :..."ok cik bole dtg balik sni"
saye :..."ok...tolong pesan dgn org dapo tu wat keje elok2 sket ek"

(sambil tgh menggigil menahan kemarahan ...rase nk jerit...geget2 org...mengomel srg2)
eh xhinginla aku nk g sane semata2 nk amik cheese tu...kang xpsl2 ko kne lempang dgn aku.,....dahla muke mcm taik....mmg xkan mkn situ lgla beb...kem slm la...aku jeling lagik ade...huh!!!

kes kete :
mase sy drive blk td...sy drive dgn bese je....walaupun sy sedeket tensen dgn keje kt opis yg xsiap lg...pastu mase kt phoenix tu...i dh msk dh kt kete2 tu...pastu ade plak kete ni....padahal td die duk blakang i....pastu nk himpit i plak..geram ok....i siap pandang die lagi...pastu leh x die pandang balik sampai buat muke selenge die.....agknyer die ingt die laki..kete besa..india pulak tu....aku takut ke???bole blala...

pastu tibe2 saye jadik sayu.....saye duk nanges srg2 dalam kete....saye rase tense sangat....tense sangat2....

kenape??
kenape sume orang taknak paham bile aku tengah tensen??
ye...bile aku cakap tensen...mesti orang balas...saba k....cool down...cool down...
tapi bile orang cakap camtu...aku xjadik cool pun...makin bertambah tensen tu...xtao nape...
aku sedeh...bile pk...
kenape xde org nk cube phm???
xcube nk phm bile aku tgh tensen...
aku xpnh mintak sape2 pun utk tolong buat keje kt opis tu...
tapi bile byk keje and kne pulak submit dalam mase terdekat....kenape xde org nk cube phm aku tensen??
kenape bile aku marah...xde org cube nk phm yang aku tgh marah?
kenape???kenape xnk cube tenangkan or making jokes utk ilangkan rase marah tu??
kenape???kenape??

mungkin??
mungkin sebab aku slalu nampak hepi??
dalam kehepian mungkin aku tensen??
sedeh?
marah?

tapi kenape??

ye aku tengah sedeh sekkarang...bkn marah..bukan geram tapi sedeh...sedeh pikikan sume ni...
sori no mud to explain mo...
tp im a bit cool down now...hmm